Tomorrow is the big day!

So unless something changes in the next 24 hours we will be holding our little gal tomorrow at this time. I still have no signs of labor so we will Head in for our scheduled c-section. I plan to have a feast tonight at 11pm since they won't let me eat after midnight. Unless I sleep through the feast. Which is likely. I have anxiety about the surgery but I'm trying to "cast all my cares on him, for He cares for me!"  Pray with me that I continue to do that. If you haven't heard from me by tomorrow evening and want a text pic feel free to text me for an update.

Here is my last belly selfie @ 40 weeks 6 Days.

One fear I have (that I've previously shared) is the time I go into surgery and Justin has to wait outside while they do the spinal block. I'm not sure why I that moment feels so scary.  When I went through that moment with Mia's birth I felt so alone and those feelings have carried over to this birth. I guess because it was traumatic time with the rude anesthesiologist, the threat of being put completely under, and the months of back pain that followed. I found this song today on youtube and I've pulled so much strength from it. I encourage you to listen to it if you feel alone. God will go before me and be there waiting for me. 

http://youtu.be/bfveawSAHJA